Things just don't seem right...

Have you ever attended a church service or been reading scripture and you look at the church you go to or even your own life and you think to yourself things just don't seem right. Many people really seem to love church and love to see the things that are going on at a church but does it match up with the bible. Many people call themselves Christian but do they match up with the bible. I look at my own life and then characters in the bible and think they have so much more faith than I do. Peter walked on water, a woman have all she owned to God, a solider told Jesus he believed that if he said something it would happen, Stephen died because he proclaimed his faith so boldly and there are so many more. To be honest my favorite times with God is not at church or a convention, it is not when I am preaching or hanging out with my friends and it is not when I am singing or taking communion. It is when I am alone reading my bible and God's Spirit is doing something in me I can't explain. He brings a sense of conviction and peace at the same time.

There are so many times when I look at my life and it doesn't seem right. I look at the church and it doesn't seem right. I look at the world and it doesn't seem right. When I read the bible I see the REAL Jesus and so often that is not the same Jesus I live for I know that seems weird to hear (it is even weird to think of) but at times it doesn't match up. I look at churches and I see all the things they they have going on and I wonder if Jesus lead there if they would still have all those things going on? What is the apostle Paul was a youth minister what would his group look like? Crazy questions but I think they may have even crazier answers. I know my walk with Jesus is a process and I have so much to learn and know but I hope more things in my life look like the bible. I hope when he says surrender I can look him in the eye and say, "Lord you know you have all of me." When he says give up everything I hope I can say "Lord I am empty handed." When he says love and feed the poor I can say, "Lord my refrigerator is empty." I hope things start matching up...